so am thinking maybe anger is better than reaching for spite and is more motivational… the disdain for the hypocrisy of higher ed! Coming to that awareness and putting it to use is the essence of spite. 4 YEARS NOW ON MY DAMN DISSERTATION! (A theoretical model!) Each day is a chance to chip away at this thing. Even later to the party, but this is exactly what I needed to read today. This is an old post but so so relevant to people who go through it. PedalRon… grammar is the new pick axe… I have heard your tale more times than I care to mention in the last few years. or what ever- & GET IT DONE! Because of spite. неплохой вариант обучают работе и бизнесу For all of the family members who asked in voices full of disdain, “Well, why would you even want to pursue college?”…or the folks I was super-jealous of for living high on the hog having never had to go this route…for seeing fellow students’ work that was just torn to shreds for ego reasons…or for the (admittedly, just) one lone holdout on the committee who insisted on shitting on my baby right to the end. I realized last night that when I feel overwhelmed or overly negative, I just need to get up and walk my dogs or go for a quick bike ride. What beautiful words! I’ve been given a hard deadline of 3/31. Ha Ha! I so needed this today as I ponder whether/ if I able to write up the diss after 7 years in hell. And in this case a new professor with different agendas could possibly redirect your efforts. After loosing my hair and taking time out of work from feeling suicidal from the thought of failure. Thanks for telling! Now EVERY time I pass the campus that houses my committee> I just read from banjo, ‘my phd advisor is a piece of shit’ search keywords. Continue to listen to your supporters. That gives some of us a bit of hope! Please e-mail me at so we can comiserate even Misery loves company as they say and in this case..Stressed out Doctoral Candidates Working on their Dissertation love Other Stressed out Doctoral Candidates Working on their Dissertations;-). i’ve reached my breaking point with my dissertation. You are correct in being speechless! to anyone reading this, no matter what stage you are on in your postgrad hellride, just know that there is an end. I could have done that! There is absolutely nothing wrong with saying fuck you to the whole thing and walking away. I read the postings, agree and just smile. however, i am at the home stretch, i aim to send her my final draft in four days, by july 15….my defense date is aug. 15…..i have sent her two emails since July 2, one being my final chapter. No pressures … Not even from me … Other suggestions? Noone else is really going to read it. It is a huge relief to scream from the rooftops, “I hate this thing!”. But look at it this way….the higher up the tree we crawl…the closer we get to their elevated perches…the more nervous they get that maybe on day one of us might just pluck that comfy chair right out from underneath their tenured posteriors…. you know…… You KNOW what it means. I just want to be DONE. An average thesis in my field has about 120-160 pages (and I know, quantity doesn’t equal quality). I am not going to walk away unfinished, I just can’t, especially because of how long I’ve been at it and how close I really am. I don’t know when I can enroll deeply into writing my thesis. No one seems to understand what i’m going through, all i can do is cry … i can’t even get up in the morning and i don’t even want to open my computer. You can do it!! The most outstanding formula to finish your thesis like a pro is crafting a winning structure and working on it step after step. My problems are that I lost my mother to brain cancer during my course work, went back and not even a year later my husband died after sustaining a massive brain I jury hanging Christmas lights right before Christmas. Yes, really. That is the no-fail secret to writing the best dissertation …. and again KNOW you have done right by them. I just read you post. Weekends I’d rather spend with my family. i’m a year past my deadline, and my adviser wants it done now. I know no one can help me, but I don’t have any motion to study further. I think I will manage to finnish by the end of June. In reading these comments you are getting the low down from many who have dared to walk that walk. I am just so tired of all the stress that has built up over the past year, I've already done my degree show and everything, but this is just killing me from the inside and it is horrible. And f&$* those people Deborah described–esp. WHAT. I am in my sixth year, now drained in every way (trying to keep sane and live on nothing), and still working on this fuxxing phd. I have no one else to talk to about this. With professional writers, you can put on a big smile right away: my dissertation is killing me, and post dissertation depression will be alien phrases. X-( I already know i’m gonna say a big F*** Y*** to this place when I get out.. Good wishes to whoever lands in this soup. it really made me laugh. I painted my home (which I’d deferred doing after years of “what if I get the job?”), started volunteering, joined a congregation. I don’t have spite either, however, I was told by my advisor – I don’t need to change the world … just get it done – so I am reducing the scope of my study and setting more manageable goals. Just grind it out and finish it up so you can move on with your life!! Hey folks, after six years of writing my damn dissertation, tomorrow I am finally going to defend it!!! I cant wait for them to say, “Congratulation, Dr. X!” after the defense! To become that doctor, engineer, or sociologist of your dreams, you need to rekindle that fire. In my candidature (Australia) I have been bullied, ignored, and ‘supported’ by totally negligent (yet predictably condescending) committee members and HR. No Fear my dissertation is killing me Shakespeare puts Shakespeare's language side-by-side with a facing-page translation into modern English—the my dissertation is killing me kind My education goals essay of English people. A year later, things are starting to feel normal again. Great Start April! My advice: once you decide to leave the academy (or accept that it has left you) start DOING the stuff you kept deferring or felt guilty about (yeah….like sit for a few hours with a trade paperback or *gasp* a beauty magazine in a coffee shop). I feel your pain. But, they are the tip of the iceberg. Good luck to everyone here. No life, puffy eyes, all-nighters and tears. I literally just googled “sick of my dissertation” to see if anyone else is at this same level of misery that makes me want to sob and punch my computer screen at the same time. Take care- all my best to you and your very bright future! The most important thing about following the best dissertation structure is that you will be able to see how to finish dissertation from previous scholars. I enjoy the sharing and everything I get from the search. The word count is looming down on me and I’m wondering where I … ELTTP- Even later to the party- I am! Quitting can be a virtue.) i don’t have a social life anymore. I must share it with my social networks. I have a full-time job, a wife, and a 23-month old son. Go back to the reason you chose to start your masters. I crawl ahead for people like Blairmo who commented above: “Please keep going… for those who have unfinished PhDs”… and also for all of the people that post here, and understand. I hate the entire process and I’m just not sure its even worth it anymore…All of this work for nothing..I hate it when people say..”It will all be worth it in the end…Or You can do it” I just want to punch them in the throat when they say that because I figure if it was such a “happy go lucky” experience like they make it seem why aren’t they doing it? Please, let this be true! The real problem was getting a job. I’ve cried. As a result, a competitor might have varying ideals chips. I don’t feel depressed, just so hard to concentrate. It really makes me angry but, I also have a GREAT target for my spite. You can do it. and it will be over. Perfectionism/procrastination? ( Log Out /  Hide chapter number, overall progress, etc. Your loved ones would have really wanted you to finish, you must think about when you get to the finish line. Whether you are wondering how to finish a PhD in 3 years or a dissertation in just three months. I have done tons of research, but I’ve just made te situation more difficult rather than easier, I think. To all of the people still fighting, keep up the good work. the actual project started 2 weeks ago…. I’m simultaneously working on chapters 2 and 3 while my chair looks over whatever I send. I meet with my advisor tomorrow to discuss his comments of the THIRD try of chapter 1. Thanks for making me laugh! I have defended & was allowed to walk in graduation – only to receive a diss with so many comments from my chair and I corrected them – then on to my editor – only to be told it was too full of edits that I had to remove them! At the time I had a bunch of so-called friends (now ex-friends) who told me that I’d never be able to finish since I wasn’t good enough (i.e. I gave myself a mental break today and cleaned my home from top to bottom! Unlike you though I have taken no time off- but so much time has passed. REPLY. I realized that I should not finish my dissertation because I really cared about my research (I didn’t), because I wanted to get a job (I wouldn’t), or because I wanted to please my advisor or anyone else (no one is worth that level of misery). That advice really jarred me out of my stupor. I don’t know what’s worse – having them pay not enough attention, or having them pay too much. And quite honestly, the verdict is still out. Taking that first or rather next step was so crucial! My only regret is that I spent years jumping through hoops instead of not giving a shit about my results and using my access to the resources in the library to learn about everything that took my fancy. 121 edits, 4 complete revisions, count- them- gone through 8 sitting committee members- ONE actually died! But European Roulette potato chips be unchanged. My beloved mentors pushed me into overly-ambitious theme which I had to defend too soon to realize what I’m actually getting into (and the committee wasn’t helpful with passive acceptance of the theme). Before I discovered spite, I went to therapy to figure out how to finish my diss without admitting myself into a mental institution. Spitefully finishing was a way of saying “fuck you” to the system and all the people who kept telling me that if I did everything right, things would work out. I watched who they hired for a new position at my PhD university and I was appalled. Four years! Full draft, advisor has offered to just take what I have and help me get it publishable. Most of all, I would earn the PhD to spite every single one of my dissertation committee members who held so much power over me and could dictate with impunity when I was ready to be released from their clutches. My new salute as I pass campus is now only one finger up and two on either side down. My dissertation hand in deadline is within two months. I’m starting to feel like they’re being harder on me because they expect more because they’re obsessing over every word and thought in my dissertation and it’s driving me crazy. If I was learning and growing from the experience, that would be a different story. spite them….I am going to continue on and do everything I can to complete my PhD to say ‘Up Yours’ to them… (But diplomacy will make me suppress this into a fake smile on graduation day). I did two years , didn’t get very far, got really frustrated, had so little guidance, got so so lost, felt embattled and alone….lost my research mojo completely.. I go back and forth from being confident I can do it, to feeling that it’s overwhelming. I did more physical activity today than I normally do, and am now more calm; I feel like I can settle into a little more work now. ONCE an f-ing year! Hi Tmp: Done. I’m back and like you I have been debating these last few months on how to approach that Everest you mention. At this point I’m just doing it because I’m so close, I’ve come this far, and I really want to prove my doubters wrong, ALWAYS have that Ph.D. in my back pocket, and to make my wife, son, and families proud. Well, actually my thesis is killing me too. Did so- but in doing so HE did not like my research method! We feel your pain and know how the endless sea of work can seem unmanageable and not worth it at times (okay, maybe “most” of the time). Miss Moxie… whatever it takes! we already knew that!” And it’s taking me a long time to complete because I am holding down an intense job at the same. At least you found this outlet like the rest of us! Nearly every hour I work on it I think about how any other topic would have been better. It is definitely and emotional rollercoaster. Individual cases don’t matter to them. The veil finally lifted as I watched them squirm when I asked for a reason why they were trying to do this…they were totally stumped for a reason. I will try to summon spite; right now, I’m just too exhausted. i got here by googling “im dying my thesis is killing me” XD. Every day, we receive dozens of desperate requests such as “My dissertation is killing me. Wanted to show my advisors that I would still finish, even after getting a (non-academic) job. I’ve stressed. I agree with all that all previously have written! Any advice is welcome. You are totally welcome, it helps me in this insane process to know I helped someone along the way , I have to submit my dissertation in one week, I defend in one month, and I seriously cannot even summon the ounce of motivation I need to open the document, and do a final run through. Maybe pride … I am taking next week off and holing up to continue … I will get there eventually – and will then probably start something else. Those are the five words that are threatening to break you down. Spite is underrated because people think it is an emotion for selfish people who are just nasty for No Good Reason. If I go in the mad house will I get an extension? Taking no breaks for the PhD- writing and revising at night after But now that you’ve already started, it is time to change the notion “I hate my dissertation” to “I love it.” You can achieve this by doing two things: Following your department’s recommendation: When you carefully follow your department’s recommendation, you will always be sure that your dissertation is on the right track. I have finally finished myself. What does that tell you?). It is an elegant contempt. In response to finding motivation…my 86 yr old father put his finger on his pulse last year and said, “Are you ever gonna finish that thing?” He promised to fly across the country and come to graduation, even if he was in a wheelchair by then. From where I sit I appreciate your emotional reaction, because you feel that you are a scoundrel. They don’t want to hear it. get to it and get over it! Bless you all who are taking or have taken the PhD track – hats off to you. I am in my 3rd year and am not really learning anything from it other than what a run-around it is. But I WON’T QUIT and I’ve put my advisors on notice that they can’t drag their feet. So when I come home from work, I have no life because I have to spend time on this worthless dissertation. “Dear Abbie”- Like we haven’t heard that as a starter in a while! I’ve just started my 3rd year and have two chapters written and the bones of my dissertation worked out, but I know my committee won’t like it because I don’t have the damn thing written in its entirety. Sometimes I review my manuscript and think, “Who wrote that part?” I don’t even recognize parts of it. Your advisor is making a huge assumption! We use cookies to enhance your browsing experience. Abused pseudoephidrine and kilotons of coffee. It’s almost Christmas and yes I’m aware I’ve neglected my blog for far too long. А это видал? Gordon, I’m done with academia, I’m done with being graded, I’m done with learning about things to someone elses schedule and limiting my learning to one subject only. To finish dissertation even when you hate it so much requires only two things. For example, I take responsibility for not doing more research about academia before I enrolled in Humanities graduate school. But still, the game is fair and if you’re good enough that’s all that really matters. JCAHO would not list the renowned hospital but mentions the lesser knowns. i stumbled upon this post today. I think I’m drinking too much, self medicating… trying to hang in there – I would like to reach for/feel spite, but feeling more sad.. what is the point and is a Ph D really ‘worth it’? I can’t tell every one around me (people with fun, money and lives) when I’m done, or still struggling, because the reaction will be – well it’s about time. To download a copy, click here.Please feel free to emaill me if you would like to discuss it. But at the same time I can’t let him “walk away” again….This is just adding insult to injury…. At least my institution has a hard one-year deadline so perhaps Parkinson’s law is in effect. This article + discussion is the best help I ever got (in 2 years of dissertation…). These are some of the reasons that might be fueling the argument, my dissertation is killing me, and I hate my dissertation. If I could go back I would shake myself, get a new supervisor, find out what I’m meant to be doing and use whatever it took to finish!!!!!!! I actually get to set roots! Is the acronym, a better way to create genuine art than the control group was used for something which prevents hunger the overall focus of the himalayas. Just to reply, I’m in a similar situation. all i can think about is how much time left i have, and when i’m going to actually finish. I NEED to finish it for a variety of reasons and I’m going to make this happen finally this spring! Changed advisors twice. A truly perfect addition to what is going on here! The struggle is so real. Too funny! Either way, I feel that the PhD track just isn’t right for me. – my friend- I could not agree more. Coming in late to say thank you, Dr. Crawler! I SO relate to the pain and suffering shared on this blog. The difference is in the type of lifelong learning. Spite is in line with how I am feeling right at this moment! And I used to care so much and now I just want to jump off a cliff when I think about it. Coffee and non-stop carbs aren’t cutting it anymore. By continuing to access this website, you give your consent to our use of cookies. 80 or so edits and 5 main body revisions now Yet- if your passions for specific knowledge persist, as they do here, the effort and aggravation IS worth the effort. But hold on; no one said it was going to be a walkover. The title (Dr. or PhD) you are about to get will attract honors like a magnet everywhere you go. Announcements Applying to uni? I’m so close, but still feels far some days. This really helps to remember and know that I am not alone. P.S. (When I wanted to quit, I devoted all of my energy in honor of Blairmo’s 1/23/2017 post). -as soon as self-doubt/terror/fear start to paralyze me, I stop myself dead in my tracks and MAKE myself, force myself to stop the paralyzing thoughts. Clients of ours vehemently agree with that statement. You will want to quit repeatedly. Either version adds to the overall horribleness. You can too! We should be all reading, critically reviewing, analyzing, and writing. I go to a fairly prestigious liberal arts school where undergraduate work seems to be more of an annoying but mandatory stepping stone to some people (but not me). Easier said than done..l but less coffee, more fruit (and I know the amount of bananas or strawberries you’d have to eat for mood stimulation would leave you on the loo for most of your study time…but…!) Thanks for sharing the information which I believe never heard before and will sure help me to explore some awesome new things for me. Don’t get me wrong, I love everything about it, just cannot start every day because that’s like climbing Mount Everest every day. In this case, athletes have chips, that have the identical true worth. You too seem to be related to my family line….. To be honest, writing the dissertation was actually kind of fun. subside- if only for enough time to read and write. and it is for a good reason! I’m not alone, but I’m still pissed about it. I am excited but also feel a little bit of sadness and regret and perhaps a little fear for the next stage in life because I’ve missed out dedicating myself to being in love, family experiences and generally being a fun person. This site was a great inspiration. I have no energy or interest to open the document and make attempts to complete, although the story here and some of the comments are giving me new ways of thinking about this strange part of my life I am going through. But worse I think about the endgame and how I might now want it at all. wow .. i thought i was the only one with these random feelings of rage. The only problem is that I am just a masters student so I am humbled by all of you. I abandoned work/life and marooned myself on an island (literally — Nantucket) for a “dissertation vacation,” and FTTT! My advisors are exactly like this. Can my advisor take away my project because my husband died? Welcome aboard! Your thesis will be a lot better! Holy crap, you have no idea how badly I needed to hear that someone else went through what I am dealing with right now! Everyone I know seems to think I will be loving my studies (not) or they say things like ‘how long have you been studying now? A thought if I may- Once the race has started- the competitor will do everything possible to cross the finnish line; not even after getting a twisted ankle, a pulled hamstring, or even a torn tendon will hamper the athlete / competitor in not crossing that line! My first external advisor died. 4 years course work alone. If you do, keep fighting. My response has basically been, “fuck you, I don’t HAVE to do anything!”, But maybe I don’t want to conform to the assumption that I really couldn’t cut it by not finishing. Thank you for your post. From my original committee I now only have two members! last Thursday I went to the lab to see what was going on and talk to my advisor. Let spite, loathing, love or stubbornness drive you on. I went on the job market for TWO YEARS! And in the spirit of this chain- Help. trying to help me get published). Thank you. And yes, the pay is often not good for the hours you put in, very sad situation. Talk about killing two birds! 9 years! (LOL) A full semester of work for a bachelor’s level research paper. So happy. I’ve been in graduate school even longer, I have a 9 month old, married now for 4 years, have a M-F full-time job, and have had a few extensions. I’ll be coming here whenever I need to be reminded that other people are just as crazy. I have written a ton of crap in grad school and had only one incomplete that I finishes quickly. Next Last. It was just what worked for me. Go. It is simply done being a dissertation, at which point it becomes another vile creature called a “book manuscript” that inspires further bouts of mental disease.). Thanks, Blairmo! I feel like I don’t even know anything either and feel like a fraud . I was actually mentally ill for about a year before I finally defended. My Second External disagreed with my premise! are now part of you. He was eleven at the time. They were ineffectual and stupid. Finish line, come to me baby. I have no-one to be spiteful towards, just this overwhelming sadness that I’m a failure for taking so long and after all this time, it’s unlikely I’ll get a distinction – so what the F@#$%^&*CK what has it all been for????? Just be willing to relocate to an area of need for your skill set and you will be all good. I am now a single mother with two young boys and we had no life insurance and no mortgage insurance (we were both students so there was little if any disposable income). 8 YEARS SINCE MY FIRST PHD COURSE WORK! Good for you, Gordon! OR you got an XXX degree form YYY? Yup! I’m very late to the party but I’m glad I found this site…I HATE MY DISSERTATION…I’m ready to jump off a cliff writing and re-writing and being told I’m not being clear..I just think its an exercise in pure torture. thanks for this post. I am a poor shitty little student who’s been doing her Masters for FOUR FUCKING YEARS! I really just want to quit after 4.5 years in the program! Academic freedom and actually caring about students have just about disappeared from higher ed. Hang in there…. Another thing you need to know is that your supervisor’s rating is based on how well he guides PhD students to success. Spending the next 20 years as a adjunct or like professor…. Job is completely unrelated to my dissertation/degree. I’ve set soft deadlines, hard deadlines, goals, rewards, punishments. I dragged myself across the finish line with the help of family, friends, Cheese-its, medications, and remembered your post from 1/23/17. We are aware of a typical student in today’s world – everything is evolving so fast, and you wish to follow suit. You will get it right. I’m so close, spite and imagining being hooded are about the only things getting me through. The available resources might be inadequate. I have had my share too of the higher then thou attitudes as well! Who wouldn’t be? I am unable to read a single paper , or a write a single word in my own without wanting to fall right asleep. Admittedly, and obviously, this is MY experience, but sounds like I may not be alone. Thank you very, very much for your feedback and support. A little late to this party, but I like this, so here goes. To M Kndr, I googled “Sick from Thesis” and found this forum! I AM SO FRUSTRATED WITH MY THESIS!!!! I’m in my 3rd year of the “dissertation” and I think my committee is unnecessarily making me jump through all of these hoops when they’ve let other students in my group pass on through with much less complicated projects. I am desperate to get out of this hell and on with my real life. To all those struggling out there just know you are not alone….believe me…you are not alone. Simply ask our writers to “write my dissertation for me” and place your order. Because now, after so much time, I can`t even imagine any other reason. Stay tuned for how late-stage Humanities PhD school turned me into a raving lunatic who found refuge in spite. I’m in nearly the same boat — so close to turning the dissertation in to the entire committee for their review, only to be told by my chair that I need to add more substance to Chapter 1. Why writing help? Now I need to rewrite! That’s so amazing you can do it girl. Now follow the dissertation carefully from the start and make the next step. I read the post and comments like a thirsty person drinking water. I wonder if my project or myself cross her mind once per week. And spite only got me so far in the end. Better late then never! I’m struggling too (analysis, statistics, graphs, measurement instruments, writes – let alone re-writes) – I never wanted a job as a professor – so I haven’t felt the need/desire to play that game. How hard is it to write a dissertation? Thank you for the post, even though I still don’t quite understand this “spite” thing. Your supervisor might be busy elsewhere and is offering unreliable help. This is exactly what I needed to read tonight. I will look back on this phase of my life some time in the future with regret and sadness, and now perhaps with lots of spite that will be burning inside for years (decades?) Oh man I wish this was over. All of my things are late most of the time and I’m just crawling along. Let’s hope this spite policy will work for me. Admin Droid Beep Beep. accurate to the best of your ability. Understanding, sharing the understanding. ps i love the fact that this is still relevant after 6 years. But when I open my document, even if I just tell myself: “just finish this one paragraph” (not exactly a major task), I get full blown rigor mortis paralysis. After crafting the structure, finishing your dissertation becomes so … Thank you, I’m going with ‘Spite’, have even named my new document ‘Spite’. Therefore, simply keep calm and finish your dissertation. (or else the fact that I’ve probably shorten my life for about 20 years due to excessive stress would account for nothing). Difficulty focusing on the chart review is also a problem. i’m so confused and it’s really f’ing with my head, her lack of response to my emails. My dissertation is killing me. Spite won’t work because I’m afraid people are going to say: Oh, that’s what you did – nothing new or important here! I just gotta shut out that questioning and the fear of this mountain being insurmountable. I owe a lot to spite. the first laugh i’ve had in weeks. currently writing my dissertation. 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